A Sore Throat Quiets The Mind

I have a sore throat today. I really do hate feeling sick, especially sore throats. They really suck, I hate the feeling of having a sore throat. Coughs are pretty bad as well, almost as bad as sore throats. But I do say, sometimes I do like fevers if I get to be wrapped up in blankets and be very comfortable. I do like that, but only if I have nothing to do. However that rarely happens because one only gets sick at the most unideal times. That may also be because during that time one is stressed and so one gets sick then.

Well, anyways. As I was saying, I have a sore throat now. And I find it somewhat good at this time. Somehow my mind is quieter. Is is some physiological thing that because one has sore throat and cannot speak that the mind chatters less as well? Perhaps, or perhaps I'm just being silly. Anyways I do enjoy my mind being quiet. Not that I am mental or anything, having multiple voices in my head. It is more that I am constantly bombarded by my never-ending list of things to do and incessant worrying of how things need to go in the future. It is very problematic, when I do not have any clear idea of where I am going, how to get there, when to get where when, and who should I approach to ask for direction s (figuratively speaking). But anyways, I guess one should have faith in this sort of things? I particularly lack faith and so am always thinking and thinking, until it is all thought out but I still haven't figured anything out. Well, it is kind of ridiculous that I need a sore throat to make myself see that this is not very right is it. I guess sickness really is the body telling me I am not doing myself any good.

The Moment Before I Sleep

I always struggle to think of what to write for this blog. It started out as being the place where I put my thoughts and I would like them to be insightful and perhaps smart. But often times I struggle to think of anything to write. So here I am to write about a particular problem.

The moment I switch off the lights and lay my head on my pillow ready for sleep, always, without fail, the most wonderful idea for a blog post pops into my head. It is as if the thought has been culminating throughout the day, and at the most greatly inappropriate moment it comes to me this gem of an idea. I could never be bothered really to get up again to jot it down, let alone fire up the laptop to write up the post. Perhaps I really should write down these ideas, just so I can see if they really are great ideas. Perhaps in daylight those ideas may actually be turd-like when exposed to the proper lighting. Anyways, it is just very convenient for my procrastinatory (this is not a word I think, given the red squiggly line appeared right under 'procrastinatory') nature that the best thoughts I have occur right when I am about to shut down my brain for the day. Anyways, good or bad, hopefully I have more time to write from now on as my calendar is pretty much clear till the end of the year, when I am presenting at an Engineering Simulation Conference, MODSIM 2011.